Tuesday, March 3, 2009
Calm Down
Why am I easy to anger? I often ask myself this question once I have settled down and realize that it wasn't as bad as it seemed at the time. It's as if I am stepping outside of myself and watching "the show". Unfortunately, it is always a rerun of the last episode and I am left feeling ridiculous, confused, embarrassed and sinful. I despise this feeling, so why do I continue to go there if I know the ultimate outcome? If I know this about myself why do I keep falling into the trap? Why do I continue to allow the devil to use me as a puppet? When I ask the question "why do I...", I am speaking of all of us who have and will fall into the enemy's traps. Does it give me comfort to know that I am not alone in this? Yes and no. Yes, because we are all born with a sinful nature and only God can save us and it is a gift that He has extended to us if we desire it. No, because it doesn't make it okay. Is hell a little more tolerable if I take my friends and family with me? I don't think so! So, I must keep reminding myself that He loves me and He only wants the best for me. He doesn't desire for me to live in bondage to "my ways". Tonight, I will meditate on this: "Come to me all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light." (Mt. 11:28-30).
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The remarkable thing is that we really love our neighbor as ourselves: we do unto others as we do unto ourselves. We hate others when we hate ourselves. We are tolerant toward others when we tolerate ourselves. We forgive others when we forgive ourselves. We are prone to sacrifice others when we are ready to sacrifice ourselves.
ReplyDeleteYou are definitely not the only one. We are sinners by nature, therefore without God, resisting the tempations (obvious or not)of Satan is sometimes a struggle. We pray and ask God to deliver us and believe that He is and has equip us with what we need to defeat Satan. We must also ask God to help us decern between what's personal and what's not. While forgiving others we must remember to forgive ourselves. Then we find peace, let go and move on.
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